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Hi.
It’s been ages since an update and all I do most of the time now is tweet. Most of the time I’m out doing God knows what to make me happy but then again college is tiring; one moment you’re happy in the clouds and then next you start evaluating where you stand and how sucky things are now that everything can’t always go your way.
This would totally abhor you but truthfully, I miss things being my way and no other way. I’m slowly seeing how contradicting things are now compared to how I’ve always wanted things to be. It’s for the better, I know, but who frickin’ goddamn cares when I’m just 18 and being a jerk once or twice is fine as long as I don’t get someone hurt.
I’m not asking for things to be my way 24/7, that’s beyond selfish lah kan? But I hate waking up in the morning with a long sigh thinking I’d have to suck-up to someone just so I wouldn’t get back an irritating complain making me feel all wrapped up in guilt thinking I’m not being too good of a friend.
Not that I haven’t been sincere with friends and all here but sometimes when you’re just obliged to be doing something you’re not even meant to be doing, you’d just feel sucky.
I don’t wanna be a people pleaser and it’s tough when you try to be all nice and the next thing you know you’re taken for granted.
I guess some of them are right when they tell me I should stop being so naive.
Aaaaaaah I don’t know. I’m just tired.
